I'm Legally Brunette

when there was me and u

2007-12-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

It's funny when you find yourself

Looking from the outside

I'm standing here but all I want

Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star

Thats coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when you smiled

You made me feel

Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words

Now my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be's

Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star

Just don't come true

Cause now even I tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Cause I liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe that

I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While I was falling

And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view

Thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

secret..

2007-12-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

THISremindsMEofYOU

IMISSYOUMISSYOU

someday..

2007-11-16T21:49:00.000-08:00

Every night I pray,
For the strength to love him the very next day;
And I don’t even know why I fell for him.
How I wish it’s not just a dream.

I wish that we could be together.
I pray so my wish comes true,
For his heart belongs to someone else,
Someone else – unknown who

He brightens my life from day to day,
And how I love his every way -
His smile his mind I comprehend,
I fell for him although my friend.

For fate has made him seen to me,
Strong and gentle and charming and very sweet;
Although together I wish we could be,
I can’t tell him now – maybe next time we meet.

For now I try to think in different way,
Believe that wind will bring me travel far;
For unless I love you thy mouth speaks say,
I believe our emotions will never at par.

- I closed my eyes and wished upon the star that I would find true love -
-one star,brighter than the others,two hearts beating for each other-

-I believe wishes do come true-

“its so hard to make known your love yet so easy to fall and care for one; ironic”

sepet post

2007-09-23T04:38:00.000-07:00

Updates:

Having literature paper 3 tomorrow morning at 8.45 and I'm so screwed with the John Keats thing. OMFG!* oops! but still i have to take it like a man! LOL.. Just finished watching "SEPET" on Astro Kirana *i cried*...

The movie sepet in correct order:

I cried .. I dont know why but i did.

Its true, true love knows no race, no colour no politics. Its pure.

**videos curtesy of a very very good person and youtube.

argh pain!

2007-09-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

Updates:

I think I am in love with my friend.

*sighs* --> But he doesnt like like me..

I really miss you *some text missing*.. I really do.

a confessional story:

The first time I saw you ; yes, i know i ran away. but that was only because i was thinking about what you will think of me.. because I am not Malibu Barbie ; not Miss Universe ; not Mika Nakashima.

The first time I talked to you ; i have to be honest as this is a confession , you made my heart beat faster <-- thats good for health right? then later you made me feel safe and comfortable and i wasn't afraid anymore.

a few more times of bumping into you and i got used to it.. but then i got afraid once more.. this time i was scared because you give me some kind of emotion that i dont think will work between you and me. I was scared if you knew, what whould you say.

today ; my friend *some text missing* told me something. something she found somewhere and all of a sudden i found that very important..

" you know i like you and i know i like you but i just cant say anything"

I'd simply rather have what we have going on right now. I'll have a little of your attention every now and then and you have mine 24/7. And you look so amazing everytime.

I have tried denial, i've tried to make myself angry at you for no apparent reason.

when you left and i couldn't see you as frequent, i naturally had an easier time going without you but then you came back ; and i am back to my confused self again.

maybe it is your natural charisma or maybe you're simply a cassanova. many people out there actually likes you.. but you like the one person .. one person ; and i'll be happy for you if you do get that one person..

simply put

I LOVE YOU

I would hate to say it,

but our friendship just cant last ;

the wonderful times we shared together,

have faded to the past

I told you it would happen,

that our friendship has bound to end;

though i know you care,

I cannot consider you as a friend;

Please dont try to argue,

that time can change people as tide can change the sand -

our friendship has been lovely,

but you see it has an end;

for now i feel in a different way,

I've fallen in love with you my friend.

+dreamingofacinderellastory+

room 1.04

2007-09-18T06:28:00.001-07:00

I'm gonna be stuck these few days at the first floor.. freaking trials! All the exams are on the first floor.. *sigh* Room 1.04 definately makes the most of my brain.. what a room.

Updates:

yesternight, though it could be considered to be tomorning ; a friend of mine like posed this really sudden question. Confessed his feelings and stuff know.

All I said was I felt like eating ice - cream.

We have a sorta kinda date or meeting if you will this thursday. Whee!~ and I get to eat ice - cream.

exams wise ; i already downed accounts paper 1 and 2.. literature paper 4 and i'm gonna have a field trip completing law paper 1 later in the auditorium.. heheee... *giggles*

p/s: my giggling ; i think, is caused by the amount of chocolates i've been engulfing these few days.. crap! i'm becoming a chocolate fan! Whee!~~

Entertainment mind:

Yesternight I listened to Mika Nakashima, not bad really and I'm kinda looking forward to buying NANA so i can watch it **DUH~ ( + + )

Also downloaded some really fun songs ie 'potentian breakup song - by ally and aj' and 'honey - by cyndi wang xin ling' --- so cute and perky the songs.

Yesh i like songs that makes people smile and prance around and do embarassing things.. I like happy things and happy songs have an impact on me..

Happy songs = Happy Rachel

Emotional songs = Emotional Rachel

Rock songs = Rocking Rachel

Well you surely get the picture right? Its kinda obvious you know? Well, I have this sorta funny thing that i really go into the music that i'm surrounded with. Its no Joke..

What the shopping malls earned from my purchases:

Firstly, i bought a pair of crocs.. freaking cute whei! kawaii-des! LMAO

Thats pretty much it

Oh wait, I bought gelato.. OMFG.. so delicious! makes me happy also.

*smiles from ear to ear*

+sofarsogoodiloveyouthatsomeone+

stevie wonder anybody?

2007-09-18T04:53:00.000-07:00

Updates:

in the last post i sorta hinted about some confusion of mine and yea, i am definately confused. see, this is a guy who is my friend.

positive ; +ve

but what you say when everytime you see him, you smile from ear to ear, your heart skips a beat and you leave him skipping like a little girl?

he makes me so happy ya'll.. what am i to do?

confusion ; argh!!*

He came back and when he was there, no one else really mattered at all.

He made me cry for heavens sake.. but i cant do it for he is clearly my friend..

argh!!*

he's breaking my heart somehow but ;

he's making me happy everyday for even a glimpse puts sunshine in me.

dear GOD I pray..

"dear GOD , tell me if there is at all a chance"

"dear GOD , give me a sign.. do i really love him?"

"dear GOD, to be in capacity to reach his dreams"

+youwillforeverbeadearone+

2007-09-12T20:12:00.000-07:00

updates again:

Yvonne saw my superman

Puteri saw my superman

Sasha saw my superman

*in that exact order.. in the exact lift

**BOO!!**

"TRL wonders.. will she see her superman.. next at the same lift??"

.wonders was it meant to be.

+wishuponafallingstar+

( n n )

he's alive

2007-09-12T19:20:00.000-07:00

updates:

I saw my underwear today.. well, maybe not today exactly, *yesterday* and he was OMG gorgeous! So tall and so handsome. But I am a little confused ever since the past few days.. Yea, some distruption going on with my brain.

Exams *stupid trials* are like few more days to go and *hahaha* *dies laughing*

Puasa month just started today and so I dont have friends who can lunch with me no more.. its kinda sad.. ( x x )

GOT PUASA?

Emotions:

Confused.. over who i like.. maybe its not as i thought.

If the two guys that i like are standing side by side, does it mean that I like the one i look at more??

**and oh my god! yvonne just told me that *he* is going into the lift..

Wishes:

I totally want that fairy doll right now.. its like.. super adorable!!

History:

Had the most amazing oysters yesterday at home and yea, he wore the same colours as me *again*.. I finally did some of Ms Angeline's homework and actually yes *actually* passed it up to her! ( she must think i've gone nuts or something )

Friends and pictures?

PUASA

Yvonne and Ibtisem.. I took this picture infront of the library.. a picture of two backsides getting their education on!!

*giggles*

I hope my readers enjoy the puasa month!

Hugs and Kisses

**BOO!!**

p/s: he just made my day!! *hearts*

+wishuponafallingstar+

2007-09-09T23:34:00.000-07:00

updates:

its been six long, painful and *hurt*-less days ; sighs and i have introduced myself to a painkiller namely 'earring shopping'. I know i know.. superman wears spandex and he looks gay/scary/bad ; but he is nevertheless irresistable. period.

secondly, today's the first day my spartan dude is working. he looks out of place but i'm sure he'll get used to it..he's a spartan!*

thirdly, a-level trials in another like 6 days. i'm like WTF!!* oops. this is pure torture, its pure stress/tension. *on knees praying*

TheRandomLawyer is like seriously getting slammed ; i wonder how long TRL can carry on being the was TRL is and was. random is fine..but lawyer? i'm kinda not that sure.

emotions:

tension and stressed and worried and pissed and.. and... impatient.. *gosh* its like a mind scrambler.. as if the mind can be scrambled just like morning breakfast and eggs.

make believe:

making believe that it is possible to be in love and be in control at the exact same time. being focused with all the more importance of confidence and hope for a brighter tomorrow.

wishlist:

well, its more of a shopping list for me..

maybe a pair of Ipanema flip-flops * Gisselle will be so proud * and for my swatch-ies to be shined to absolute perfection. As for today and wishes.. it might come true after all.. I wish for *the guy that lives on the second floor* to appear once more..

+wishuponafallingstar+

(+.+)

the mill on the floss

2007-09-08T05:17:00.000-07:00

* The Mill on the Floss *

Its always nice to see something for a change.. and films with old settings are beautiful.

Tom Tulliver who is getting his eddication with Mr Stelling meets Phillip Wakem, the son of Mr Tullivers arch enemy Mr Wakem, a lawyer.

See, in this clip, there's a conversation between Tom and Phillip. Tom is quite a bully as you will see as you go on watching.

This is kinda entertaining know.. Tom is kinda *ah duhhh* LOL.. and kinda L.A.M.E for a boy who's getting a good education. He's childish. Haha..

Tom Tulliver has a visitor at Mr Stellings.. He expresses his unhappiness on the education he is imposed to attend. An ungrateful boy he is...

So here's a clip where Tom, goes home and finds out something about rabbits..

Here's Tom, Lucy and Maggie having their tea, the language they use.. Its most beautiful. Notice Maggie's hair?

Maggie ran towards the river? Now, I wonder what happens after that.. seriously, I've yet to look for more video clips.. I wish i could find more..

The Mill on the Floss

I shall put up my own version to the summary soon when I am done reading the book that is.
So till then

Hugs and kisses

wonder?

2007-09-06T23:29:00.000-07:00

Updates:

I havent seen underwear in like three days straight. I'm kinda worried about this undergarment know.. *underwear doesnt even know he's like my superman* Oh, what i'll give to feel HURT again.. Its been ever so long since my heart actually yearned for some pain.

I just bought a pair of earphones from the KDU bookstore.. for like fifteen bucks. WOW!.. * that Mahmood! He told me he got it from heaven* LMAO

I actually finished the tutorial for English literature and I did the Bandana Ltd question.. haha.. although i sorta kinda like gave up before the Trading Profit and Loss Account ended but.. I tried..

Puteri is sitting next to me right now and I'm as usual at TLC.. me and Elissa's "special classroom" <--- Because Miss Angeline thinks that we both have History class. *giggles*.. Haikal is being really eMo because he claims that Puteri rejected him. Funny guy. Oh, and Puteri is 'feeling' MT.. haha.. Yvonne is not here today, she skipped Lit to go to the hospital and see Mahmood and Saadain.

I know i know i'm not supposed to like blog for this period of time cause of the trails.. but i can resist.. LOL.. whee!~

I had a date with Shunggie tonight at the park.. *he's my friend and we were gonna make him cry and let the pain out tonight* but i had to like cancel it because of the like prayers thingi that i have to go later tonight.. whee.. *FIREWORKS*

Listening to LOCOMOTION on my, i mean Puteri's favourite mp4.. its actually a nice song know. Everybody's doing the locomotion.. * alterego singing *

Emotions to date:

I have this bleeding feeling in my throat. I mean, Its really bleeding.. like i swallowed glass or something.. like WTF!!* oops. Besides that, I'm worried. Its weird that i can actually worry about someone that i dont know.. haha.. but i am worried.. I am also confused thanks to the same person. Being confused is not fun.. acting confused is though..

I wish:

I wish i could go somewhere for a holiday.. somewhere abroad..
I wanna go the the beach and throw a glass bottle in it.. along with all my wishes so that the sea will carry it far and wide
I wish for that gold swatch watch and that motorola handphone..
For the lamp to shine brightly again and to light up my day..

I dont mean to sound emotional but i dont know.. emotional things are in someway beautifully put and not usual..

lotsa hugs and kisses

ya'll know i love ya'll

xoxoxox

DUKES OF HAZZARD

Itu kamu

2007-09-02T20:48:00.000-07:00

I know, i know.. its kinda funnny that all the songs are like all from malaysians.. but yeah.. i am into the malaysian music scene.. listen to it, its really good. Dont tint your eyes as to the music in Malaysia will suck. It really doesnt k.

Apart from what we M'sians call rock.. which usually equalls to noise.. most of the 'rock' songs are actually really cool know. Here's another one. Please go buy the songs. MusicCanteen
if you may. *buy the song*

Itu Kamu - Estranged.

Segally yang ku pasti akan aku capai untuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cintaku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hatimu
Mengingari dalaman akalmu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yang terang

Hatiku, mahu mu
Rupa mu
Masih masih masih masih

Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu Kamu

Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya

Repeat chorus..

Now that was a really good rock song.

p/s: I think Andy *the drummer* is so cute but my brother doesnt. He's so mean *my brother*

and also, visit estranged's webbie. ---> http://www.estranged.info/

hugs and kisses ya'll*

Malaysian Unity.. Lin Yu Zhong feat Sheila Majid.

2007-09-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

Listened to this song many times on the radio. Especially Radio 98.8
Thought it was an amazing song but didnt know the title and singer. Finally found out about it while watching the 50th Merdeka celebration in Malacca which was sponsored by MY.fm on television.

Thought of sharing the lyrics with my readers.

Lin Yu Zhong & Sheila Majid (林宇中 & Sheila Majid - Melody)

Kau melodi yang indah
Menusuki jiwa
Tanpamu
Hidupku tak bermakna
duo me shi zai de gan jue wang zhe ni de lian
zhe yi ke wo dao le bei ren yi wang de yong yuan
Pertemuan yang tanpa diduga
xiang mi lu de ren zhao dao hui jia de lu xian
Engkau bak lagu dan aku bagai irama
Bersatu kita mewarnai hidup bersama
Tanpamu hilanglah nadi kita berdua
Menderita tiada haluan
Woo~ zai wo xin li zui dong ting de melody

Kau melodi yang indah
Menusuki jiwa
Tanpamu
Hidupku tak bermakna
duo me shi zai de gan jue wang zhe ni de lian
zhe yi ke wo dao le bei ren yi wang de yong yuan
Pertemuan yang tanpa diduga
xiang mi lu de ren zhao dao hui jia de lu xian
Engkau bak lagu dan aku bagai irama
Bersatu kita mewarnai hidup bersama
Tanpamu hilanglah nadi kita berdua
Menderita tiada haluan
Woo~ zai wo xin li zui dong ting de melody

Engkau bak lagu dan aku bagai irama
Bersatu kita mewarnai hidup bersama
Tanpamu hilanglah nadi kita berdua
Menderita tiada haluan
Woo~ zai wo xin li zui dong ting de melody

Menderita tiada haluan
Woo~ zai wo xin li zui dong ting de melody

examinations.. oh sh*t

2007-09-02T18:23:00.000-07:00

I just got so bored trying to study cost behaviour and the break even analysis sheet.. argh.. cost accounting ; but i must honestly say that its kinda nicer a class than financial accounting. *oops*

I think most peeps will actually agree with me on this.

And I found out the *ahem* underwear guy's name. LOL ; well, i can say .. its interesting. Heehe, but he is foreign so i dont blame him. Still cute though 23.

On youtube now, searching for the easy way out to learn and master literature. LMAO.. watch the video instead of reading 11 freaking books on literature. Its not exactly light reading know. Imagine.. *yawns*

p/s: if i do get the video somehow, I'll try my best to post it on here so we can all cheat.. Haahaha

LOL, I cant believe this, I'm like super slacking right now. Promised myself to like, you know study and all for the stupid trials. WTF am I doing on blogger. Well, since i am already here must well just explain my situation.

Message: I wont be blogging for quite some time cause of the stupid trials.. *scoffs*
so please forgive my absent-ness.

I typed 'charles dickens' on youtube and guess what came out!! Some freaking cleavage blopper.. haha.. crazy!
Its weird cuz i actually watched the series of David Copperfield on YouTube last week and this week its no longer there.. *sighs* guess GOD doesnt want me to have the easy way out huh?..

Past weekend was so lame.. Capital L.A.M.E <-- not a remake of Gwen Stefani's L.A.M.B Singing "Setia" by myself and watching the 8tv Quickie edition of the merdeka celebrations. Too lazy to get stuck in the jam.. So.. Thats about it.. I really dont know when will be the next time I'm gonna post another BLOGGIE..

p/s: still trying to get a cbox on my blog.

Hugs and kisses to all my readers.

XD

alteregofallsforaboy

2007-08-14T05:15:00.000-07:00

for a days journey

leads to ; many excitements

for thee wish to dwell here long

deep and soft within thy soul

for waves colide if time permits

thy sight

for I lye here for times as passed

the sounds meet by my side

like the galaxy thou art

for thee can only vision from afar

feel the rush

thy form

for I kneel by the moonbeam

worshiping thy life

thy shining light ; blinding

for thee cannot revert thee vision

heart beats - pacing

thy aura

**inspired by: a boy.

alter ego falls in love - kaibuliaokou

2007-08-14T01:47:00.000-07:00

才離開沒多久就開始擔心今天的妳過得好不好

cai li kai mei duo jiu jiu kai shi dan xin jin tian de ni guo de hao bu hao

整個畫面是妳想妳想的睡不著

zheng ge hua mian shi ni xiang ni xiang de shui bu zhao

嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣還有在妳身上香香的味道

zui du du na ke ai de mo yang hai you zai ni shen shang xiang xiang de wei dao

我的快樂是妳想妳想的都會笑

wo de kuai le shi ni xiang ni xiang de dou hui xiao

* 沒有妳在我有多難熬

mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao

(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)

(mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao duo fan nao)

沒有妳煩我有多煩惱

mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao

(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)

(mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao duo nan ao)

穿過雲層我試著努力向妳奔跑

chuan guo yun ceng wo shi zhe nu li xiang ni ben pao

愛才送到妳卻已在別人懷抱

ai cai song dao ni que yi zai bie ren huai bao

** 就是開不了口讓她知道

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao

我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑

wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni ye dou ni xiao

妳對我有多重要我後悔沒讓妳知道

ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo hou hui mei rang ni zhi dao

安靜的聽妳撒嬌看妳睡著一直到老

an jing de ting ni sa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao

就是開不了口讓她知道

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao

就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到

jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao

整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著

zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhao

這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我

zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao dan na ge ren yi jing bu shi wo

shunggie.

2007-08-12T05:03:00.000-07:00

hartshunggie.

why ; because - shunggie is sweet and he is kind. shunggie cares. the guy is smart, a nerd?shunggie makes me feel safe

shunggie is my friend*

hartshunggie.

p/s: thank you shunggie for being there. hugs*

you're not a NERD shunggie but if your friends insist ; then

too bad they are not nerds huh?!*

giggles

LOTSA LOVE

what to say after a breakup for a girl.

2007-08-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

start off with saying "boys suck!"

tell him that all this while you were worried about his lack of brains

boys are like emus. pure evil *spread the news

tell him beware because you're deadly

he can suck a duck if he wants to. *if he cant reach his manhood himself

its true.

well, some of them do. like my ex!* giggles

definately!~ no doubt about it!

they lie to cheat so if they lie, they MUST cheat too

how can you let other boys see your 'precious'!!

and besides;

dont worry. there will be another one just as DUMB.

**inspired by : stupid boy with horrible taste and character**

GIGGLES OUT LOUD

hugs and kissies

feeling hungry

2007-08-11T00:50:00.001-07:00

firstly; start of with something celerabtive~ YAY!!

then something adorablly gummie* wink*

lick on a lollypop and seduce someome.. LOL

wash it down with a creammy sin *giggles*

add to the sinful-ness *oops*

snack on something for a kick of endorphines *whee!~

finally, end with something refreshing... haaa..

LMAO*

I AM HUNGRY

hugs and kissies

reasons why we are all the same.

2007-08-09T17:45:00.000-07:00

I was just lying down on my bed staring blankly at my blue cieling and JJ and Rudy came on the radio doing their funny stuff as usual. This time about how the 'shuttlecock' was invented my a Malaysian named Mr Kok..

As a Malaysian; PROUD Malaysian I mean *ahem* LOL.. I suddenly decided to get over the grudge I have built for Khairy Jamaluddin after the various things I have got to know about him, the latest being an article I read in The Star newspaper a few days ago when he said that the next election for the country is about the future of the Malays. So, I'd surely wish that this has not been published as it will definately have sparked a flame in those who are not Malays. I am a proud Malaysian, I just try not to give a damn about the political system in the country, and as a proud Malaysian, I thought I would show that we are all indeed the same, except for the fact that some people in general are very childish in the actions.

How are we the same you ask? Well, sometimes if u squint a little and tilt your head a little you might be surprised to find ridiculous facts that make us all indeed the same. As a law student, I know that the law in Malaysia is very much influenced by politics. So I dont look so strictly, and I choose not to care.

Reasons Why We Are The Same

we ALL need to go the toilet every now and then
we all EAT, maybe not the same food but yea, we eat
we all shopped in malls before
we all listen to music, some have weird taste but that doesnt change the fact that we do
when we we're in school, we all ate the one ringgit nasi lemak
we all sing the national anthem.. Negaraku!!~
we all have drawn the Jalur Gemilang at least once in out lives
we all have brains to think
everyone knows that BABI is not halal
we all have parents *DUH*
we know that when we smell a strong scent from afar, its a DURIAN
we all wash ourselves, if you dont, OMG!!
we have Penang, with all their Skillful drivers
we all have comdenmed the country at least once in our lifetime..*be honest!
we all know that the government is screwed up in most areas
we all know we have beautiful beaches
we all know that the MRR2 was dangerous and is still is LOL
who doesnt know who the 'bapak kemerdekaan' is?
we were all made to go to school because of the system!
I know that UMNO is for Malays
and MCA is for Chinese
and MIC is for Indians.. ; do you?
we all have read newspapers once in our lives at least
we all yawn. whether or not we cover our mouths
we all know that the 17 year olds in the country have to go for NS!! HAHA! I didnt kena!
we all know that nothing lasts forever
we all like sweets at some point in our lives
we all want to have a lot of money and show up our neighbours! LMAO*
we all know if we go straight on the LDP, well reach either Damansara or Puchong.
we all know someone Malay, someone Chinese and someone Indian.
we all thought that HISTORY was BORING at least once
we know that 'khalwat' is a wrong thing
we all like to go mamak ~~ except for some rich bitch *grins*
we all 'lepak'
we are so carefree.
Nasi Lemak tambah this and tambah that! <-- who never do before??!!
Burger Ramli tambah telur.. haha!*
we all know Tun Mahathir
we all try to crack jokes sometimes
we have our very own 'cicakman'
we all know that 'sepet' is a Malay film despite the fact that Chinese have 'mata sepet'
we all heard of 'ayah pin' and his land of pots and stuff
we are somehow a little proud living here like it or not
we all know that SINGAPORE is KIASU*

MALAYSIA BOLEH

Now, maybe all the things I listed there above is not a lot, and some of it is more of a joke than a fact, but what the hey? Why cant people just close one eye sometimes? Just be dumb and act like everything is perfectly beautiful and Singapore sucks! Personally, I like Singapore! Its beautiful, but some typical M'sian are also KIASU!! *giggles* I know that M'sia is old, 50 years. (if my mother read this she would be furious) <--- she is 50 also. I know that the country is getting old, freaking kolot la whei!~ but I see no signs of retirement. Guess we all have to endure the naggings from the old for a long long time.. *laughs*

As a closing statement, I would like to say in pure 'Bahasa Pasar and Rojak'

Eh, korang ni kan, tinggal kat m'sia tapi pasal la orang nak celebrate 50 tahun macam babi aje xde org yg excited pon. Sedarlah skit, bangge lah skit. Mcmlah country lain ade mat rempit, mcmlah pat lain ade satay, org panggil kebab la! kite je yg panggil satay. krang org kate korang x patriotic marah plak, kutuk sini kutuk situ.. kitorang pun ape lebihnye.. same aje, akarnye same. tak blajar BM ke? "hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri" pasal nak kuar! kan M'sia Boleh!! hahaha!~~

What a post that was.

LOTSA LOVE

XOXOXOX

I died today

2007-08-09T04:43:00.000-07:00

At 5:45 pm on the 9th august 2007 ; a thursday.

I died.

To emotional to give a FUCK about anything anymore.

The sun shall no longer shine for me.

And I mourn the DEATH of myself day by day.

Tell me that I have a chance for I dont see it.

Murdered by the very HUMAN I loved.

That is no more.

I have rebooted my brain and burned my HEART.

I shall live no longer.

DEAD

"pray with me Forest, pray with me"

"dear god, please make me a bird so I can fly away from here"

"before it's too late"

Nostalgia

2007-08-08T19:31:00.000-07:00

I was cleaning up my Yahoo.com inbox and I wasnt really in a happy mood for that fact. I finally decided to delete some of the mail that I have obviously totally forgotten about. Cleaning up things and house keeping is to me somehow like going down memory lane most of the times you find things you never remembered still being there. I came across this, a forwarded mail that my beloved ex boyfriend sent to me many many years back. I forgotten that I didnt delete it, but somehow I remembered the story. Every bit of it. With that particular mail, I also found that all the mail he sent to me was never deleted from my e-mail account. Maybe I really miss me but I dont know, for the past few days things have been making me think a lot about him. The below I will post the forwarded mail that I was talking about. Obvoiusly there is more, but I remembered this one.

Neva wait for someone to say **i love you**

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She
was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and
wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had
missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me
to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat
next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was
mine. After 2 hour s, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to
tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she
said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together
just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was
over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she
smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be
mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said
"I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want
to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was
graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up
on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged
her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best
friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now.
I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you
came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell
her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my
"best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in
her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

So thats the mail that I got, many many years ago. Since then, many years has also passed, obviously, and that person and me has not really had a conversation ever since it ended. But what the hey right?

I MISS HIM

*half smiles*

GOD!*I MISS YOU SO MUCH*

and dude..

2007-08-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

I learn many things through life and this is one of it.. Something I learnt through experience because life if only so short and your time is only so limited. Pain will pass with time...

Life is much more beautiful when you have beautiful friends around. Life is wonderful when friends love you as much as you love them. Life is heaven on earth when you live in a happy family and enjoy every bit of it. Thankfully, I have mostly everything to survive life.Well, maybe except the motokrzrk1, the gold swatch watch and and the apple green vaio. LOL* But whatever it is my life is just wonderful! amazing!!*

Thanks

Daddy and Mummy*

I love my parents like hell!! haha!!

All things aside, OMFG* today I saw a super awesome guy.. *melts* .. nicknames M and M's because i dont know his name.. haha. Doesnt matter. I just wanna look at him.. not that i like him or something. Other than that, I dont really know what to talk about.. not much happens in my life. *giggles* but whatever happens, its either super fun or super adorable! hahaha!!~

Thats for today I Guess.. LMFAO*

Haha!* Chicks Rule!! *giggles*

STARS *LMAO*

XOXOXOXOX

Thats what girls do..

2007-08-07T00:10:00.000-07:00

OMFG* I so want a wabbit like that!!

Haha.. This is funny!*

LMAO* I have this on friendster!! *giggles* RAWR

I'm not a BIG fan of cats but this is somehow disturbingly ADORABLE*

This is for my friend.. PANDI LMFAO**

**I posted this out of sheer boredom at TLC in college.. I am with my friend. And my friend is putting her leg on my chair.

*giggles*

xoxoxoxox

Mean Boys.. Do They Exist?

2007-08-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I really wish to thank my 'inspirations' to the presence of this blog post. They really have contributed much to the insight of this particular stereotype of boys or males in general. So before I begin the indiscrete journey on the pathway to explain more on Mean Boys.. please give a drumroll to...

Mr. I am SO HOT!! and Captain HOTPANTS. And to all the other aspiring mean boys out there.. you can find these role models everywhere now. My inspiration was adapted from the college where I 'do my thang'.

All this while, i am now 18 years of age, I used to think that only GIRLS were mean.. and hence the movie staring Lindsay Lohan supported my statement. MEAN GIRLS. Epic in a sense that it captured the very beautiful aspects of the classic MEAN GIRL. She has all the qualities that can make a man fall head over heels for her.. lick milk right from the palm of her hand. She was *super beautiful*, *super popular*, *super sexy* and of course *super mean*. Attributes like this makes her a bitch and now it seems that bitches are hard to get and therefore very very irresistable. Males for all their dumbasses will definately fall for a dumb blonde.. but in this case.. a dumb brunette.. or maybe her hair is pink from dye. LMAO* But really recently i have been inspired by the MEAN BOYS in my class to study this particular stereotype.

Unlike the undisputed *mean girls, who are usually HAWT. The *mean boys just 'THINK' THEIR HAWT (BEYOND BELIEF) <---- because of their insecure ego. Maybe because of a recent break-up or maybe because he has super thin legs that he wants to show but is afraid that people may find out that he is actually aneroxic.*haha LMAO** You'd think that men should grow more manly with time but some just shrink.. sorry to say. These men seem to take on the behaviour of ladies now.. bitching behind people's back..

Sometimes its funny to see perfectly 'ok' looking men acting like chicks.. trying to get attention to themselves.. those insecure little wieners. But it is like whatever.. they really need to get a life.. like what is it your problem to care what people wear and what people should look like anyway? Go home to your DotA and go masturbate yourself.. If you think a girl is fugly with her outfit.. imagine you in it.. OMFG.. you are *fugly too.. hahah!! If you think that being fat or chubby is a SIN.. haha.. imagine your future wife after she get a baby!.. FLABBY! hahaha.. Sorry for being mean but wtf.. u really deserve people being mean to you.. try being a man for a change.. maybe you will get more respect.

LOTSA LOVE

XOXOXOX

200 pounds a BEAUTY?

2007-08-06T01:52:00.001-07:00

The song I posted above is, i believe the original soundtrack to the korean movie '200 pounds Beauty'. The title being stars.. a cliche huh. The song is sang by a fat girl in the movie.. yea.. that 200 pound girl. She is fat and ugly, but has an extremely beautiful voice. Because she is fat and considered a turnoff she works for a famous singer.. singing her songs while she performs.. Basically meaning she performs backstage.. when i watched the movie in my living room the first time i was really moved and cried too..but all tears aside and whatever. This song is really nice and moving though simple. Sang with much emotion, this is one of the songs that can actually bring out the emotions in you.. I believe that everything happens for a reason in life and nothing can be of a permanence. Life brings you places and stops somewhere for a reason.. walking down a path when time slows down, maybe you should slow down and smell the scent of the flowers by the pathway. Life may bring people down sometimes. Depending on how you react to it, you get another path to walk on.. hold on! tight and go on the ride.. look left, look right and LOVE LIFE!!*

p/s: do enjoy the song..

the girl two doors down

2007-07-27T03:27:00.000-07:00

How funny can it be that when one proclaims that she is no girl next door but the girl two doors down and guys come flocking by like ANTS to SUGAR spilt on the ground. I just editted my MySpace account and it was a record braking situation. I dont know really whether if it was some spam shit but i got 53 friend request in less than 6 minutes, I havent even finished editting it yet too and all this is so lame that people actually do take the time to send me messages saying that they wanna get to know me better.. more and more.. I seriously dont mean to sound like a bitch but all these males or shall i call them *y chromatids* really need to freaking get a life.. LMAO!* Its just not up to my customs to have people trying to get to know me.. especially if it is a male!Its not like i am a hot chick or some sort, i'm just the girl two doors down. That doesnt mean that i am that sort that is going to get freaky with you over a drink or for a BMW. No way! I mean, boys can be so shallow at times they actually use their *heads* to think and not their brain. 'Catching my drift?'

Yes, I am BRUNETTE and super proud of it! Life rocks being a brunette. Sorry if I offended some people in my previous statement but its just so funny what people will do for, oh I dont know, chicks? This is freaking hysterical!

So like I said, I am not your ordinary girl next door, I am the girl two doors down the lane! I am mature and childish at the same time, unpredictable simply because most people dont know what I might lash out next. Having said that, I dont in any sense mean it in a MEAN way.. I am not one of those MEAN GIRLS.. I am perfectly pleasant and I forgive easily, I am basically friendly but I am not POPULAR. Though I wish I was, but on the second hand, i'd rather have a bunch of close friends and be friends with everyone else than to be admired.. Its so much responsibility.. LMAO!

And so like OMG! There's this guy that I think is totaly cute and awesome but he doesnt like talk to me at all and I really dont know why at all! But like recently, we had a 10 minute MSN chatting session.. and my heart felt like it was gonna fall off or something.. LOL.. Yes, I am a normal girl with hormones!

Wanna get to know me? You have to try very hard simply because it is never easy. I think its partially my fault because I do not impose things on people about me and therefore I often get hurt by people but WHAT THE HEY! I dont care.

So this is basically my introduction. Simply to inform you reader that this blog is not written by a girl next door but the girl two doors down!!

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