reashelle xie

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

5:15 AM

for a days journey

leads to ; many excitements

for thee wish to dwell here long

deep and soft within thy soul

for waves colide if time permits

thy sight

for I lye here for times as passed

the sounds meet by my side

like the galaxy thou art

for thee can only vision from afar

feel the rush

thy form

for I kneel by the moonbeam

worshiping thy life

thy shining light ; blinding

for thee cannot revert thee vision

heart beats - pacing

thy aura

**inspired by: a boy.

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

1:47 AM

才離開沒多久就開始擔心今天的妳過得好不好

cai li kai mei duo jiu jiu kai shi dan xin jin tian de ni guo de hao bu hao

整個畫面是妳想妳想的睡不著

zheng ge hua mian shi ni xiang ni xiang de shui bu zhao

嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣還有在妳身上香香的味道

zui du du na ke ai de mo yang hai you zai ni shen shang xiang xiang de wei dao

我的快樂是妳想妳想的都會笑

wo de kuai le shi ni xiang ni xiang de dou hui xiao

* 沒有妳在我有多難熬

mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao

(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)

(mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao duo fan nao)

沒有妳煩我有多煩惱

mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao

(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)

(mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao duo nan ao)

穿過雲層我試著努力向妳奔跑

chuan guo yun ceng wo shi zhe nu li xiang ni ben pao

愛才送到妳卻已在別人懷抱

ai cai song dao ni que yi zai bie ren huai bao

** 就是開不了口讓她知道

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao

我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑

wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni ye dou ni xiao

妳對我有多重要我後悔沒讓妳知道

ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo hou hui mei rang ni zhi dao

安靜的聽妳撒嬌看妳睡著一直到老

an jing de ting ni sa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao

就是開不了口讓她知道

jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao

就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到

jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao

整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著

zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhao

這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我

zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao dan na ge ren yi jing bu shi wo

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

5:03 AM

hartshunggie.

why ; because - shunggie is sweet and he is kind. shunggie cares. the guy is smart, a nerd?shunggie makes me feel safe

shunggie is my friend*

hartshunggie.

p/s: thank you shunggie for being there. hugs*

you're not a NERD shunggie but if your friends insist ; then

too bad they are not nerds huh?!*

giggles

LOTSA LOVE

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

4:33 AM

start off with saying "boys suck!"

tell him that all this while you were worried about his lack of brains

boys are like emus. pure evil *spread the news

tell him beware because you're deadly

he can suck a duck if he wants to. *if he cant reach his manhood himself

its true.

well, some of them do. like my ex!* giggles

definately!~ no doubt about it!

they lie to cheat so if they lie, they MUST cheat too

how can you let other boys see your 'precious'!!

and besides;

dont worry. there will be another one just as DUMB.

**inspired by : stupid boy with horrible taste and character**

GIGGLES OUT LOUD

hugs and kissies

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

Saturday, August 11, 2007

12:50 AM

firstly; start of with something celerabtive~ YAY!!

then something adorablly gummie* wink*

lick on a lollypop and seduce someome.. LOL

wash it down with a creammy sin *giggles*

add to the sinful-ness *oops*

snack on something for a kick of endorphines *whee!~

finally, end with something refreshing... haaa..

LMAO*

I AM HUNGRY

hugs and kissies

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

Thursday, August 9, 2007

5:45 PM

I was just lying down on my bed staring blankly at my blue cieling and JJ and Rudy came on the radio doing their funny stuff as usual. This time about how the 'shuttlecock' was invented my a Malaysian named Mr Kok..

As a Malaysian; PROUD Malaysian I mean *ahem* LOL.. I suddenly decided to get over the grudge I have built for Khairy Jamaluddin after the various things I have got to know about him, the latest being an article I read in The Star newspaper a few days ago when he said that the next election for the country is about the future of the Malays. So, I'd surely wish that this has not been published as it will definately have sparked a flame in those who are not Malays. I am a proud Malaysian, I just try not to give a damn about the political system in the country, and as a proud Malaysian, I thought I would show that we are all indeed the same, except for the fact that some people in general are very childish in the actions.

How are we the same you ask? Well, sometimes if u squint a little and tilt your head a little you might be surprised to find ridiculous facts that make us all indeed the same. As a law student, I know that the law in Malaysia is very much influenced by politics. So I dont look so strictly, and I choose not to care.

Reasons Why We Are The Same

we ALL need to go the toilet every now and then
we all EAT, maybe not the same food but yea, we eat
we all shopped in malls before
we all listen to music, some have weird taste but that doesnt change the fact that we do
when we we're in school, we all ate the one ringgit nasi lemak
we all sing the national anthem.. Negaraku!!~
we all have drawn the Jalur Gemilang at least once in out lives
we all have brains to think
everyone knows that BABI is not halal
we all have parents *DUH*
we know that when we smell a strong scent from afar, its a DURIAN
we all wash ourselves, if you dont, OMG!!
we have Penang, with all their Skillful drivers
we all have comdenmed the country at least once in our lifetime..*be honest!
we all know that the government is screwed up in most areas
we all know we have beautiful beaches
we all know that the MRR2 was dangerous and is still is LOL
who doesnt know who the 'bapak kemerdekaan' is?
we were all made to go to school because of the system!
I know that UMNO is for Malays
and MCA is for Chinese
and MIC is for Indians.. ; do you?
we all have read newspapers once in our lives at least
we all yawn. whether or not we cover our mouths
we all know that the 17 year olds in the country have to go for NS!! HAHA! I didnt kena!
we all know that nothing lasts forever
we all like sweets at some point in our lives
we all want to have a lot of money and show up our neighbours! LMAO*
we all know if we go straight on the LDP, well reach either Damansara or Puchong.
we all know someone Malay, someone Chinese and someone Indian.
we all thought that HISTORY was BORING at least once
we know that 'khalwat' is a wrong thing
we all like to go mamak ~~ except for some rich bitch *grins*
we all 'lepak'
we are so carefree.
Nasi Lemak tambah this and tambah that! <-- who never do before??!!
Burger Ramli tambah telur.. haha!*
we all know Tun Mahathir
we all try to crack jokes sometimes
we have our very own 'cicakman'
we all know that 'sepet' is a Malay film despite the fact that Chinese have 'mata sepet'
we all heard of 'ayah pin' and his land of pots and stuff
we are somehow a little proud living here like it or not
we all know that SINGAPORE is KIASU*

MALAYSIA BOLEH

Now, maybe all the things I listed there above is not a lot, and some of it is more of a joke than a fact, but what the hey? Why cant people just close one eye sometimes? Just be dumb and act like everything is perfectly beautiful and Singapore sucks! Personally, I like Singapore! Its beautiful, but some typical M'sian are also KIASU!! *giggles* I know that M'sia is old, 50 years. (if my mother read this she would be furious) <--- she is 50 also. I know that the country is getting old, freaking kolot la whei!~ but I see no signs of retirement. Guess we all have to endure the naggings from the old for a long long time.. *laughs*

As a closing statement, I would like to say in pure 'Bahasa Pasar and Rojak'

Eh, korang ni kan, tinggal kat m'sia tapi pasal la orang nak celebrate 50 tahun macam babi aje xde org yg excited pon. Sedarlah skit, bangge lah skit. Mcmlah country lain ade mat rempit, mcmlah pat lain ade satay, org panggil kebab la! kite je yg panggil satay. krang org kate korang x patriotic marah plak, kutuk sini kutuk situ.. kitorang pun ape lebihnye.. same aje, akarnye same. tak blajar BM ke? "hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri" pasal nak kuar! kan M'sia Boleh!! hahaha!~~

What a post that was.

LOTSA LOVE

XOXOXOX

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

4:43 AM

At 5:45 pm on the 9th august 2007 ; a thursday.

I died.

To emotional to give a FUCK about anything anymore.

The sun shall no longer shine for me.

And I mourn the DEATH of myself day by day.

Tell me that I have a chance for I dont see it.

Murdered by the very HUMAN I loved.

That is no more.

I have rebooted my brain and burned my HEART.

I shall live no longer.

DEAD

"pray with me Forest, pray with me"

"dear god, please make me a bird so I can fly away from here"

"before it's too late"

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

7:31 PM

I was cleaning up my Yahoo.com inbox and I wasnt really in a happy mood for that fact. I finally decided to delete some of the mail that I have obviously totally forgotten about. Cleaning up things and house keeping is to me somehow like going down memory lane most of the times you find things you never remembered still being there. I came across this, a forwarded mail that my beloved ex boyfriend sent to me many many years back. I forgotten that I didnt delete it, but somehow I remembered the story. Every bit of it. With that particular mail, I also found that all the mail he sent to me was never deleted from my e-mail account. Maybe I really miss me but I dont know, for the past few days things have been making me think a lot about him. The below I will post the forwarded mail that I was talking about. Obvoiusly there is more, but I remembered this one.

Neva wait for someone to say **i love you**

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She
was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and
wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had
missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me
to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat
next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was
mine. After 2 hour s, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to
tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she
said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together
just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was
over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she
smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be
mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said
"I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want
to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was
graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up
on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged
her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best
friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now.
I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you
came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell
her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my
"best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in
her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

So thats the mail that I got, many many years ago. Since then, many years has also passed, obviously, and that person and me has not really had a conversation ever since it ended. But what the hey right?

I MISS HIM

*half smiles*

GOD!*I MISS YOU SO MUCH*

and dude..

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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

5:59 AM

I learn many things through life and this is one of it.. Something I learnt through experience because life if only so short and your time is only so limited. Pain will pass with time...

Life is much more beautiful when you have beautiful friends around. Life is wonderful when friends love you as much as you love them. Life is heaven on earth when you live in a happy family and enjoy every bit of it. Thankfully, I have mostly everything to survive life.Well, maybe except the motokrzrk1, the gold swatch watch and and the apple green vaio. LOL* But whatever it is my life is just wonderful! amazing!!*

Thanks

Daddy and Mummy*

I love my parents like hell!! haha!!

All things aside, OMFG* today I saw a super awesome guy.. *melts* .. nicknames M and M's because i dont know his name.. haha. Doesnt matter. I just wanna look at him.. not that i like him or something. Other than that, I dont really know what to talk about.. not much happens in my life. *giggles* but whatever happens, its either super fun or super adorable! hahaha!!~

Thats for today I Guess.. LMFAO*

Haha!* Chicks Rule!! *giggles*

STARS *LMAO*

XOXOXOXOX

ImLegallyBrunette.STFU

12:10 AM

OMFG* I so want a wabbit like that!!

Haha.. This is funny!*

LMAO* I have this on friendster!! *giggles* RAWR

I'm not a BIG fan of cats but this is somehow disturbingly ADORABLE*

This is for my friend.. PANDI LMFAO**

**I posted this out of sheer boredom at TLC in college.. I am with my friend. And my friend is putting her leg on my chair.

*giggles*

xoxoxoxox

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Monday, August 6, 2007

5:38 AM

Firstly, I really wish to thank my 'inspirations' to the presence of this blog post. They really have contributed much to the insight of this particular stereotype of boys or males in general. So before I begin the indiscrete journey on the pathway to explain more on Mean Boys.. please give a drumroll to...

Mr. I am SO HOT!! and Captain HOTPANTS. And to all the other aspiring mean boys out there.. you can find these role models everywhere now. My inspiration was adapted from the college where I 'do my thang'.

All this while, i am now 18 years of age, I used to think that only GIRLS were mean.. and hence the movie staring Lindsay Lohan supported my statement. MEAN GIRLS. Epic in a sense that it captured the very beautiful aspects of the classic MEAN GIRL. She has all the qualities that can make a man fall head over heels for her.. lick milk right from the palm of her hand. She was *super beautiful*, *super popular*, *super sexy* and of course *super mean*. Attributes like this makes her a bitch and now it seems that bitches are hard to get and therefore very very irresistable. Males for all their dumbasses will definately fall for a dumb blonde.. but in this case.. a dumb brunette.. or maybe her hair is pink from dye. LMAO* But really recently i have been inspired by the MEAN BOYS in my class to study this particular stereotype.

Unlike the undisputed *mean girls, who are usually HAWT. The *mean boys just 'THINK' THEIR HAWT (BEYOND BELIEF) <---- because of their insecure ego. Maybe because of a recent break-up or maybe because he has super thin legs that he wants to show but is afraid that people may find out that he is actually aneroxic.*haha LMAO** You'd think that men should grow more manly with time but some just shrink.. sorry to say. These men seem to take on the behaviour of ladies now.. bitching behind people's back..

Sometimes its funny to see perfectly 'ok' looking men acting like chicks.. trying to get attention to themselves.. those insecure little wieners. But it is like whatever.. they really need to get a life.. like what is it your problem to care what people wear and what people should look like anyway? Go home to your DotA and go masturbate yourself.. If you think a girl is fugly with her outfit.. imagine you in it.. OMFG.. you are *fugly too.. hahah!! If you think that being fat or chubby is a SIN.. haha.. imagine your future wife after she get a baby!.. FLABBY! hahaha.. Sorry for being mean but wtf.. u really deserve people being mean to you.. try being a man for a change.. maybe you will get more respect.

LOTSA LOVE

XOXOXOX

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1:52 AM

The song I posted above is, i believe the original soundtrack to the korean movie '200 pounds Beauty'. The title being stars.. a cliche huh. The song is sang by a fat girl in the movie.. yea.. that 200 pound girl. She is fat and ugly, but has an extremely beautiful voice. Because she is fat and considered a turnoff she works for a famous singer.. singing her songs while she performs.. Basically meaning she performs backstage.. when i watched the movie in my living room the first time i was really moved and cried too..but all tears aside and whatever. This song is really nice and moving though simple. Sang with much emotion, this is one of the songs that can actually bring out the emotions in you.. I believe that everything happens for a reason in life and nothing can be of a permanence. Life brings you places and stops somewhere for a reason.. walking down a path when time slows down, maybe you should slow down and smell the scent of the flowers by the pathway. Life may bring people down sometimes. Depending on how you react to it, you get another path to walk on.. hold on! tight and go on the ride.. look left, look right and LOVE LIFE!!*

p/s: do enjoy the song..

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